Haaaaaaaave you met me??

7 Years Later

Its been seven years since I got depressions and later dropped out of college. SO many things have happened since that have lead me to where I am today. I used to think dating someone new would give me happiness that would take me out of that depression. I have always been a firm believer in things happening for a reason. My whole life has consisted of things happening to me that I did not understand but I always kept going. I have always wondered what the purpose of my life was and thought that my ultimate goal should be find “the one” and get married. All the things I have gone through have changed that belief. I am still the sappy, romantic kid searching for that, in fact in so many ways I have not changed. All that’s happened is that I have realized why I didn’t need to change all that much. I still love helping friends and people in general. I like doing things for the sake of being good and expecting nothing in return. I haven’t let the things that happened to me turn me bitter and careless, if anything I care even more because I know what it feels like when nothing feels like is going well. when you are up crying all night because you feel like you have no purpose and nothing can change that. ive helped friend deal with whatever they needed help with, however they needed help with. I’ve been lucky enough to receive help sometimes too, I have met so many amazing people and friends that have helped be who I was meant to be and realize what I have to do. As much as the romantic in me hopes to find “The One” I have more important things to do. I hope to be able to obtain a job which will allow me to provide for my parents so that they no longer have to work and can just retire. But that’s just the beginning, as someone who has suffered through a lot of things I want to be able to help people. I want to be able to give back just as I have received. Ive been lucky enough to get through things I once though impossible thanks to the help I received from a lot of sources. I want to do that for someone, somehow. 7 years ago I was living with my parents completely depressed, with no idea where to go. Now I am finishing my degree this semester later celebrating that achievement at my favorite festival in Lake Tahoe.  I hope 3 years from now I can come back here and talk about how ive been able to help not only my parents and family but other people too. Because now im aware how much life can change for the better when you just keep going and never give up.